3. The root of my problems is a job that I hate. I am worth to do what I really love and everything will be fine.
Once you make your hobby your job - you will stop loving it. First, it will turn into a routine and then, God forbid that, into the same hated work.
Have you ever wondered what is the difference between a hobby and a job?
Hobbies are what you do for yourself, without obligations to other people.
Work is a commitment and a time frame.